Beauty and Chaos

Although you said it was a joke – I’m going to be honest – I don’t think I’ll be able to come back from this. Unfortunately, you hit the deepest wound I have. Feeling like people don’t care. You were the only one I felt like cared about me. What I had to say or what was going on in my life. That stint was the worst thing you could have done. It just confirmed that my belief was right – no one cares. I’ll keep my thoughts and feelings to myself.

You’ve helped me a lot so I won’t go anywhere but the wall has been rebuilt and won’t be penetrable. You’ve impacted my life so much that I’ve only been staying around because I love and care for you so much. I’m honestly only living for you. I still will so maybe this is for the best because if we do fall apart – I won’t have to stick around anymore. Anyway, it’s okay really. I still love you and owe you my life so trust me it’s okay. It hurt sharing my inner feelings and thoughts anyway cause I know they brought you down. This is for the best. Thank you. It’s all alright I promise.