Beauty and Chaos

I’m trying to be easy on myself these days. Trying not to expect anything out of life anymore but also trying not to be angry about it either. I’ve realized there is a lot of anger inside of me. Like a burning fire that’s storming within. I clench my teeth and bite my tongue because, I know if I don’t, a blaze would come out and burn everything and everyone in its path. My goal isn’t to burn bridges or ruin relationships – I just want to be happy. At least content, I guess. Well… I shouldn’t ask for even that I guess. I shouldn’t ask for anything. I won’t. Maybe one day the switch will flip and I’ll just be. Maybe it won’t. Can’t even ask for that in this life. Anyway, just going to go with the flow. I have no other choice.